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I'm tired in a way sleep doesn't fix. And I already know resting doesn't work, because I've tested it. A weekend does nothing. Two days off and I'm right back where I started. I've tried the four-day weekend. I've tried the long vacation. And sure, for a few days I felt human again. Then it drained right back out of me within a week. That fast. Here's the thing I figured out though. It's not energy. I don't come home from work with less energy. I come home with less of myself. I can't be bothered to call anyone, cook a real meal, pick up anything I actually care about. The hand pan sits there. The book sits there. I sit there. That's why sleep doesn't touch it. Sleep fixes a tired body. It can't give you back the part of yourself that got spent at work. There's no amount of rest that hands that back. And the stupid part is I keep trying to rest anyway. Every weekend, still hoping this one's different. Because what else is there. So every Monday I go back in already behind. At some point being tired stopped being something happening to me. It just became who I am. When's the last time you woke up and actually felt ready for the day? Subscribe if this hit home. This is Outside The Order. #burnout #exhausted #workingclass #realtalk #outsidetheorder