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I ran out of people to text a long time ago. I just didn't say it out loud until now. For a while I had one friend I still talked to, and that one thread made me feel like I still had people. But I was always the one reaching out. Always texting first, always carrying it. And when that faded, the whole illusion went with it. I looked at my phone one day and realized there was nobody left to message. Part of it is just age. You lose friends without anything going wrong. No falling out, no fight, just years passing and people drifting. Nobody's the bad guy. It just happens, quietly, and one day you notice the quiet. Some of it I did to myself. I got off social media, deleted the apps, and it turned out some friendships only ever lived inside those apps. The second I left, they ended. Those people wouldn't move it over to a real conversation, and I couldn't trust myself not to get pulled back into the feed anyway. So now it's a lot quieter than it used to be. I fill some of it with reading, with making these videos, with talking to you in the comments. It's not the same as having someone to text. But it's what's actually there right now. When's the last time you had someone to text just because? Subscribe if this hit home. This is Outside The Order. #lonely #lostfriends #loneliness #realtalk #outsidetheorder