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I want to fit in, but I can't put on a show. That's the part I finally had to admit to myself this year. I tell myself I need to get out more. So I do. And then I'm standing there in a room full of people just waiting for a good time to go home. I want the friends. I want the group. I just can't do the version of me that seems to be required to keep it going. Part of it is I never learned how to build any of that. I always had one person filling that spot instead. Now that's gone and I can see the hole it was covering. I don't need more people. I need one real one. Does any of this sound like you? Subscribe if it does. This is Outside The Order. #loneliness #realtalk #workingclass #menshealth