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I check my phone for no reason. I'll refresh my email twenty times a day. I don't get emails. I don't run a business. There's nothing there and I check anyway. It's a nervous tick at this point. No text, no notification, nothing coming, and my thumb still goes for it. Half the time I'm just unsubscribing from stuff for something to do. And the weird part is I'm not even on social media. I quit all of it. No Instagram, no Snapchat. So it was never the apps. It's the phone itself. Here's what I actually figured out though. I can't be bored anymore. Every gap gets filled now. Red light, lineup, thirty seconds of nothing, out comes the phone. And I used to just think in those gaps. Boredom is where thinking happened, and I don't have it anymore. I don't think it's really about the phone. I think I'm reaching for somewhere else. Life gets a bit dry and I check out for a second. The phone is just the exit. And the part that gets me is I can't even leave it behind if I want to. I tried leaving it home and couldn't get into my own email. The bank wanted a code just to let me do my banking. Everything needs it now. How many times did you check yours today when there was nothing there? Subscribe if this hit home. This is Outside The Order. #phoneaddiction #screentime #modernlife #realtalk #outsidetheorder