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"Forsaken" is out NOW via AWAL. Stream: http://lnk.to/forsaken Follow Madi Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/madimakesmusica Twitter: https://twitter.com/madimakesmusica Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/5KtyvSnzn6NcqukCOsjfe0?si=dbIUn7AHSIO6SRCOjp-8TQ SoundCloud: https://soundcloud.com/madimakesmusica Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/madimakesmusica Visualizer by @sinewavekid : "After first listening to the finished version of 'Forsaken', the lyrics 'push you away when it feels all consuming' encapsulated the entire feeling of the song to me. These lyrics gave me a strong connection to the Japanese concept of 'kintsugi', in which something broken is repaired with gold and made even more beautiful. The visualizer is partially an abstraction of that concept, in which the constant shifting cracks on the hands are actually spaces revealing all the light that’s always within you. Instead of running from the fear and convincing yourself that you’re flawed, I think it’s important to see that we are all figuring life out, and that is not easy for anyone. The beauty is in the process and in acceptance, and even when life gets hard it’s those exact hardships that shape you into the beautiful person you are today." Lyrics: Would you love me still if I was hospitalized Can’t afford it when you turn me into your prize, and then idealize every twist of my lip and curve of my jaw I’ve deceived myself, could I ever be bored Fuck I’m breaking down and become my own storm, sorry to be confusing I’m just losing parts of myself With a kiss of my hip oh I feel like I’m floating, then push you away when it feels all consuming Obsessed and depressed I don’t know what I’m choosing Call it when you feel like quitting you’re over, it’s not like I felt like this would be forever Nobody could ever want bloody endeavors Please don’t think that I’m tryna be so aloof, it’s not on purpose you would know it if I could Insane rainy days like a burst of shame Burst down it’s the person you chose, lock down I’ll defend all my wounds Hope that you’ll be patient with me anyway Duck low it’s a crazy behavior, I know I can’t make you my savior, but all that I’m asking is you please forsake me “Forsaken is about when you convince yourself that you are not deserving of love ever or that you will never heal, and so you push people away as a default defense-mechanism. It was something I absolutely experienced when I was new to dating my boyfriend after being hospitalized for mental illness in 2018. For months I had a mindset that I should just be left alone/abandoned, as a fair punishment for being this way & too challenging to handle. It was the most brutal and heartbreaking form of self-sabotage. But this is my story of recovery” - MADI